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I'm pretty sure no one gives a crap and reads my LJ anymore.

But, um. I got married on September 4th!

So here are somewhere around 100 pictures for your viewing pleasure. It's a slideshow. I didn't choose the song, my photographer did. The funny thing about that...? It was neck and neck with the song we chose for our first dance, and only lost out by a little bit. She said she chose it because it reminds her of the way we look at each other.

My only response was that apparently, my photographer is the next person after my husband who "gets" me. I love her. So here you go.

Our Slideshow
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What I'm Thankful For

Yesterday I had a chance to think about what is really important.

I'm thankful for my family first and foremost, and my friends, and my life. My health and that of my family and friends. That the world may soon change for the better. For babies and TURKEY!

But yesterday, as selfish as it may be, I was most thankful for:


And because you might think the ring is as UNBELIEVABLY GORGEOUS as I do.... Here you go :)




Story to follow :)
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Cure Kids Cancer


Right now, May 4-6, Connie and Fish on my local radio station Z104 FM are running a Radiothon. It's 6am-7pm for three days, 39 hours to raise money to cure kids' cancer. 40 children will die of cancer in Wisconsin this year, and they are trying to get as many listeners as possible to join the Connie and Fish Cure Kids Club, by donating $15 (or more, or less) monthly (or once) to cancer research and program development. The University of Wisconsin Children's Hospital is one of the best pediatric oncology centers in the country, and the money donated will stay local to the hospital and it's research and development programs. I know that almost none of you are from Wisconsin, let alone my part of Wisconsin, but if you see this before 7pm Central on Friday May 6th, and you have 5 dollars to give once, or give monthly, or more than that, or if you're looking for a good cause to send some of the money you plan on donating this year, THIS IS IT.

They've had kids who survived, and families of kids who did and didn't survive on the show, telling their stories... these families are so wonderful, and I haven't spend 5 minutes in the car without crying in the last two days because these stories are so heartwrenching.

The only thing preventing a cure for cancer is enough money to make it happen. Do what I did... join the Club if it's at all possible, and save some lives.

(I won't be offended if you don't, or can't. But at least think about it. And maybe pass the word along.)
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    Guster - Two Points for Honesty

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So, I never update anymore. I almost never feel like it. I wouldn't "feel" like it now, except that I have this unmistakable need to get this out of my head.

My grandfather died a year and 3 days ago. I still don't really believe he's gone. Since I don't live at home anymore, I just keep going home expecting to see him, and he's not there. I've only been home twice since he passed away, and I just don't know how to get it through my head, once and for all that I'm never going to see him again. Because he's my pop-pop, you see... I've never lived without him, and I miss him, more than I ever thought I would. Horrible, isn't it, that I couldn't imagine missing him this much, because he was old, you know? And I didn't see him all THAT often, even though he and mom-mom only lived an hour away. Like it would have been such a big deal to see them more often. I know it's pointless to have regrets now, and I try not to, but sometimes it's just so overwhelming. I'm not looking forward to missing him on Christmas. He was such a great guy, you know? Always joking, so kind and wonderful, he really was such a lovely man, everyone should have been so priveleged as to know him. I just wish I had had more time to say goodbye. That I could have seen him one last time.

There's just so much going on in my life right now, so much flux, most of it good even, but there promises to be even more, one way or another. I had such a great day, an amazing interview for a real job, and scheduling another interview for MOnday for another real job, and both jobs promise to be wonderful opportunities... and then I see a stupid TV show that reminds me that I never get to hug pop-pop again and I break down.

So, thanks for listening. Reading. Whatever.
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Wow. So, it's been a long time, eh? There's been a lot going on, so I guess I should apologize, but I really have been busier than ever. Though, with the amount of time I spend reading the rest of you, I guess I really have no excuse. So anyway.

A long time ago, someone tried to steal my car while I was visiting John. I do have the most stolen car in America, but I still never thought about it, living in Wisconsin. In New York/CT, yeah, I'd have been worried, but never here. Well, I walked out to my car early one morning and I turned my key in the lock, but it was already unlocked. "Funny," I thought to myself, "I didn't unlock this car all weekend." See, I have this neat little anti-theft device that I decided not to remove after all, and it locks my car doors automatically when I shut off the car. Then I opened the door to beepbeepbeepbeep! beepbeepbeepbeep! "Funny," I think to myself again, "that's the sound my car makes when there's a key in the ignition." So I sit myself down in my driver's seat, and look at the ignition. There's a key snapped off in there where someone tried to start my Ezra with the wrong key. Anyhow, they didn't succeed, but I called the police, was late to work, and it was a general pain in my rear-end. So, that's major event number one I didn't record.

John's birthday was fairly uneventful too. He got MST3K volumes 1 and 5 from my parents and I, respectively. He got a wine rack that I killed myself to find, and succeeded, because I'm awesome. He also got floor seats to Sarah McLachlan. Incidentally, his birthday was near the end of July. The concert, which I'll get into later, was not until last weekend. I bought the tickets on January 9th at 10am. I'm a forward thinker. You might say I had faith in this relationship :)

At the end of July and beginning of August I moved from my apartment of 2 years to a less awesome apartment. However, I now live with 2 less people, have a bigger bedroom, and on the really hot days, A/C for no extra charge. The kitchen has no counter and cabinet space even though it's a big kitchen, and I have to say that's absolutely the most annoying thing about it. It's so hard to cook in there! I bought a wireless router for the place though, so I no longer have wires running everywhere, and I must say, it's not like I haven't used wireless before, but oh boy do I love it!

August 13th John and I saw a year, officially. It's a few weeks after we actually spoke for the first time, but we figure the in-person meeting holds a bit more significance. He cooked me three square meals, and we generally spent time around the apartment and just enjoyed being together. Quite honestly, I don't know how I ever did without him. He's fuzzy.

Also, at the beginning of August, I started at my new job. The restaurant opened on the 20th, and I've been working 4 or so shifts a week since we opened. Some nights/days I make nothing, but I've walked away with $150 in my pocket also, so I guess it evens out juuuust fine. I'm finding that I'm WAY suited to waitressing. I still make a few mistakes once in a while, but it's only been two weeks and hey -- we're all new, the place is new, no one expects all the kinks to be worked out yet. So yeah, I love it. I work with (mostly) great people, the place is beautiful, and I don't even feel like I'm working when I'm there. It's just fun. I understand now why some people with college degrees keep waitressing. If you've got the personality, there's nothing more fun. I like to talk to people. That's pretty well served at Starbucks, but it's very well served at the restaurant.

Speaking of Starbucks, I've been passed over for promotion 4 times in about 3 months. I want to quit, but I've already made the decision that Starbucks is the job I'm giving up when I go back to school, so I have a set date on how long I have to endure the place. I used to love my job, but since it's become evident that someone somewhere hates me for no good reason, I've resigned myself to my current position for a few months... and then I'll be free. I'll go back to Starbucks maybe if I move somewhere else.

So. Friday was the Sarah McLachlan concert that I've been looking forward to for about 9 months now. Before the concert I bought us dinner at Joey Buona's on Water St in Milwaukee - home of the best Italian Nachos known to man. We brought most of those home -- we forgot how absolutely huge the portion is. Anyway, we got to the concert a little early, and got to people watch. There are some strange people who like Sarah, let me tell you. So, the best part of the whole night was the opening act - an adorable, amazing girl from Australia named Butterfly Boucher. Bow-cher, not Boo-shea, because that's how it is in Australia - and yes, Butterfly is her real name. She has a fantastic voice -- in fact, I'm pretty sure it's better live than on CD, and she puts on a fantastic show. John and I became instant fans and bought CDs at the break, and had them autographed. Let me prove it to you. Butterfly Boucher You won't be disappointed.

Anyway, Sarah herself was fantastic of course, but nothing out of the ordinary. We were 25 rows back to the right of the floor. They were great seats. Anyway, Sarah sounds just as good in person as on CD, and she's beautiful of course, and her voice is amazing of course, but she didn't really put on a great show. The set was cool, but she only really looked comfortable when she was sitting at the piano. Standing up with a guitar, she looked... stiff, I suppose. Regardless, the entire experience was totally worth all the money it cost. So, yay.

Not much left to report. I'm going to Pittsburgh with John to see his family for Thanksgiving. I'm so incredibly excited, it's going to be fantastic. His mom's also coming to visit him at the end of the month, and I can't wait to see her then. She's the best.

So you probably didn't even make it to the end of this. Let's hope I update considerably more often and with less information from now on, hmm?
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    Butterfly Boucher - Another White Dash


You are a WECF--Wacky Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a candle burning at both ends. You work until you drop, and you play until you can stand to work again. You have so much enthusiasm that you can find it hard to control on your own, and you appreciate the guidance that channels your energy and lets you be your best.

In a relationship, you require lots of attention and support. You often over-contribute and end up feeling depleted and cheated. You may benefit from more time alone than you grant yourself.

Your driving force is the emotional support of others--especially affection. You can run on empty for miles if you have positive energy behind you. Without it--as it occasionally must run dry--you are depressive, listless, and difficult to motivate.

You need a lot of affection. Get it any way you can, but never at the cost of your self-respect or well-being.

strangely accurate. who knew?
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    "When You Say You Love Me" - Josh Groban


Honestly, I think I am dating the most wonderful man in the universe.

I wouldn't trade him for anything or anyone.

Ever. EVER.
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my name is blue... my favorite color! find out what color you are..

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The problem with loving someone this much -- with loving them with all that I have to give and probably more, and more and differently than I ever have before, is that I'm so much more susceptible to hurt.

Or, not to hurt, but to feeling more intensely. Things that didn't scare me before scare me now. Or at least, threaten to fill me with the fear that I won't get to accomplish things or go places or do things with him, things I want to do, places I want to go, things I want to experience by his side.

I've had dreams and desires all my life, and now they include him. I made him promise to tour Europe with me someday.. I want to go on a cruise, I want to see a baseball game in every ballpark in the country, I want to go on a picnic (do you believe I never have?), live my life, do everything I've ever wanted to do.. with him.

It's funny how my life before him seems distant and blurry - like the unfocused points in a photograph that are somehow important to its composition, but far from the focus - clear, brilliant, and ever-defined in technicolor.

He is the bright, fire-engine red in contrast to the soft black-and-whites that exist around him. It bleeds out and my world is all a little red these days.

I like it that way.
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